Set Backs and the Honey Hole

I'm not even sure how to approach writing about this. But it's a major part of my journey so I'll just jump in and let the chips fall where they may. I'm in dire straits when it comes to money. I have stretched the budget to the breaking point and I did this under the assumption that I would supplement my over extensions on the Credit Reorganization (i.e. pay it down thru an agency) by transferring the extra 700$ from my earning into the main account. What I did not factor, nor even think about, is the unexpected expenses. This month, and we are only 8 days in, is a back breaker. Over 10004 in medical bills including two major Vet bills.

And I have not filed taxes to get the stimulus money because I am a procrastinator and don't want to be even more in debt and have to tap into my stocks. I should be worrying constantly about "what if's" . Suck as, what if I have to put J in a home, or have (pay for) in home health care. He is not getting any better and there is no hope for a cure any time in the future. It's infuriating that they can come up with a vaccine for the Covid and not find any way to combat Alzheimer's in 30 years. Priorities I suppose.

I am at the point that I would like to work at this like a real job. I could improve my picture taking by just studying how to do it! I could improve my listings by watching You Tube videos and learn from people who are willing to share their knowledge. I could upgrade my computer so  it does not take 2 hours to list three items. Yet I am constantly making excuses just like I procrastinate!!

J is a big road block. He is restless, bored, unfocused, regressing, and demands a lot of attention. I am in a tough place with him. The guilt is overwhelming. I need to spend hours a day organizing my death pile and listing, researching, and sourcing. It's clearly becoming a burden to juggle both J and my efforts to make money by reselling. He resents the time I spend "alienated", that is the word he used yesterday.

And so.....................

I went to my Honey Hole on Saturday. B was here and so I felt okay leaving for hours. The honey hole has always come thru for me. First time I found the lot of seamed stockings for 59 cents that made me a lot of money. I found the Stratigo game from the 1950's that I sold for a tidy profit. I found the Star Bucks mug and the Monster High dolls the last trip. This trip I spent another whopping 59 cents for a Marlboro Unlimited Mug that should profit around 10 or so.

At another GW, which was a birch to get thru because of the amount of traffic on S-ville road, I found a pair of Enesco planters and an Orange County beer stein! There was a Peppermint Barbie Doll behind the counter for 18.99$ which I passed on. I maybe could have bought it and then sat on it until the right buyer came along, but my finances are in peril this month.

All things being considered, I had a good week end. I posted several things that sold immediately. The Laughing Buddha, the Irish Zippo, and the Barbie ornament.

And I moved some old inventory including a CPK which I have had since late October. But, every thing I sell from that Auction is pure profit now. And I sold two items from it this past week, the CPK and a Madam Alexander doll.

So, I need to stop whining and lamenting and procrastinating and get my butt into gear and start packing the items up for shipping.